The life of mankind is driven from the heart. You may follow your desires in a moment of weakness from time to time, but the heart, the center of your being and architect of your belief system, will drive the direction of your soul and capture the thoughts of your life. Jesus said, “A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bring forth evil. For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.”
The hustle and bustle of the people had stirred up quite a dust cloud on the streets of first century Jerusalem. An atmosphere of excitement, almost like electrical energy, moved the people that day because Jesus was in town. No one had ever healed a man who was born blind before, or spoken for God with the power to deliver a man bound by a legion of demons. After his teaching on this day, he fulfilled a 500 year old prophecy out of Isaiah by laying hands on the children and blessing them, when a very rich young ruler came to him, fell on his knees and worshipped him, begging a question. “Good Master, what shall I do that I may inherit eternal life?”
He was disturbed about his life after death arrangements, and was looking for a way to nail down his eternal reservation. Jesus on the other hand, was anticipating a journey of the heart to the Father. He loved this journey and was excited every time he had the opportunity to take it with someone. The question the young ruler asked was the right question, so Jesus stepped in and said,
Why do you call Me good? No one is good except One, God. You know the commandments: Do not commit adultery, do not commit murder, do not steal, do not bear false witness, do not defraud, honor your father and mother.
Then Jesus loved him. He gazed beyond the young man’s eyes and into his heart, and loved him. When you love someone you will tell them the truth from a heart of care and compassion. Of course, telling someone the truth in love does not mean that they will agree with you, but they must be told the truth.The man who was still on his knees looked up at Jesus once again and said, “Teacher I observed these from my youth.”
When Jesus looked into this man he saw all of his secrets; he saw the truth about his heart, he saw the truth about his god, and he saw all of the fear, doubt, and unbelief that terrorized him. He literally knew everything about him. Just because Jesus knew all of his dirt, he did not go around setting off a truth bomb, as an emotional terrorist might do. In this story, he told the truth in love, because he had the young ruler’s best interests at heart. His goal was not to embarrass him in public and use the power of peer pressure to control him, but give him the answer to his question.
One thing is lacking to you. Go, sell what things you have, and give to the poor. And you will have treasure in Heaven. And come, follow Me, taking up the cross. But being sad at the Word, he went away grieving; for he had many possessions.
In this public encounter, Jesus spoke with great respect and love. Jesus knew what needed to happen for this rich young ruler’s soul to let go of his idol. Jesus knew the secrets of his heart and wanted him to be free. The subconscious belief system in this rich young ruler’s heart would not let him part with his riches in order to gain eternal life. The rich man was driven from the heart. You are too.
Life is Processed in the Soul
Every time I spin the globe of my personal life experiences, I sneak a quick look at the mountain top experiences that have influenced my present-day, subconscious belief structures. When I put on a set of reading glasses labeled “a belief system formed in the heart by my original sin paradigm and the interpretation of past experiences”; I realize how difficult it is to see my past or present as it really is. As I peer into that globe that contains my life-timeline stretched out event by event, everything is blurry, unless I put on a new perspective and receive God’s revelation of truth.
The rich young man who humbled himself by kneeling down at the feet of Jesus, had a number of these mountain top experiences that positively reinforced that money was more important to him than any other relationship. He had experiences that established his identity with his riches, supported his pride of life commitments, and connected his heart with his ability to multiply his resources. The rich man needed a new belief structure. Even though the love of money is the root of all evil, there are many other beliefs that will yield the same result as the rich man’s bondage. What you focus your soul on will be the power that drives you.
For example, if you believe that all of the authorities in your life are out to get you, you will resist any command and form rebellion in your soul. As a result, you will need a new point of view. If you believe that your friends will betray you, you will be driven to resist them before they can act on your suspicions. Subsequently you will need a new paradigm. If you believe that sales people want to take advantage of you, you will be driven to resist anyone who applies undue pressure to make a decision. Then you will need a new set of glasses to see people clearly. If you believe that God is a rosy smiling fat man who will give you whatever you want, if you will rub his belly just right, you will be driven to please man and worship a god, like Buddha, that caters to your desire for pleasure.
A Better Way
I am writing this book to open your understanding to the spiritual and physical foundations of God, which will set a confidence in your heart. I understand where you are coming from and how to acquire the confidence of truth. Although I had lived in a successful pastoral career for approximately 35 years, I survived most of my life with a deep sense of fear and anxiety, anger and frustration, helplessness and hopelessness, and a psyche that was riddled with the fear of failure and rejection. I believed that when people got to know me, they would not accept me.
These torments were not the sum of my experiences, but this mindset had furrowed deep grooves into my belief system. I lived in a place where I believed God’s truth, but I did not accept that truth personally. I proclaimed the truth of God’s word, but did not believe I deserved the promises to be fulfilled in my life. God’s truth was good for everyone except me. God’s grace has been truly amazing as I have worked through the spiritual and emotional condition that the Apostle Paul would identify as,
Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof….
This condition caused me to care for people tirelessly but question God’s love. For hours before the weekly ministry meetings, I experienced fear and dread, and after these responsibilities were complete, I sensed accomplishment but felt an undercurrent of frustration and fear that questioned the value of my service. You might call this self evaluation but I call it torment.
I have met many people, just like me, who looked calm on the surface, but had a storm brewing in their eyes. Most of us believe what we think, as if our thoughts and opinions can hold the sum of our heart-felt conviction. But the eternal God knows what drives you. Therefore, he has made the creation to respond to what you believe not what you think. What you believe and compels you to act begins in the soul. Do you know what drives you? Do you know who you are? Do you know what you believe? Do you know how the actions and reactions of your life reveal what your heart believes? And do you know how to establish the mind of Christ and enter into the secrets of God’s kingdom?
God does give you a process for cleansing the soul, purifying the conscience, and transforming your mind in James 4:6-8. I call this the kingdom circle, and I will unfold this process of change and repentance later.
A Storm in the Soul
One day a lady came in for help. She was working through some very strong performance issues, which drove her to outperform everyone. She was pushing herself beyond normal limits at work, even though her boss was not leveraging her for more production. She thought these often unrealistic expectations were coming from her desire to succeed. Her driven Type A personality was causing some very serious marital and parental problems at home. No one could measure up to her expectations. She was so driven, that she could not see herself having the strength to sustain the same level of performance into her twilight years.
After an introduction to the SozoLife process, we began working through the issue at hand. I said to her, “When you are experiencing an issue in your present-day life, you can be confident that the issue is fruit on a tree, and where there is fruit there is also a root.” After we welcomed the Spirit of truth in prayer I said, “Will you close your eyes and repeat this prayer phrase by phrase after me out loud please?”
She said, “Yes.”
I began with, “Holy Spirit of truth, will you please show me where this drive to perform is coming from?” We waited for Holy Spirit to answer. He says, “Ask and it shall be given you.”
She felt a small constriction around her shoulders and sensed darkness all around her. At the beginning it was a little unsettling for her. “I don’t understand what is happening and why I am only seeing darkness.”
I spoke very calmly, “let’s assume nothing for the moment. Let’s ask the Holy Spirit another question: “Holy Spirit of truth, do you want to show me where I am and how this experience relates to the issue in me?”
She said, “Oh… I sense that I am in my mother’s womb. Now…I am hearing a conversation between my mother and father. I think they are in the kitchen, eating supper. My mother had just found out that she was pregnant with me.” She could sense the apprehension in her mother’s voice.
“I am pregnant.” Her mother said. The words fell as if her father was not listening. A moment of silence seemed like a month as she began to feel the tension that was in her mother’s voice. Then she heard her father.
“I thought you were on the pill.”
“I was, but one got through.” She could feel the tension inside her begin to grow exponentially. She began to feel an uncertainty about her future. Her father spoke again with an edge of sarcasm.
“I don’t know if we can afford to have a baby right now. This is going to put so much pressure on us financially. I may have to go out and get another job.”
“What are you saying…?” her mom said. The discussion escalated. Then she heard her father offer another solution.
“Or… maybe you should go out and get a job. I don’t know if I can bring in enough.”
As she was hearing her father and mother’s discussion, her soul was processing even as an unborn child. The Holy Spirit opened up the memory and process of this experience. When God releases your soul, it does not have to grow up. You were chosen in Christ before the foundations of the world. She was hearing, sensing, and feeling in the present, through the Holy Spirit, a deep sense of frustration coming up in her heart.
I responded to the facial changes with this question. “What are you feeling? If the feelings coming up from deep inside you could speak what would they say?”
We sat for a few moments so that she could find the words to describe what these intense feelings would say. “I am hurt and rejected because my father does not want me. I am angry. I cannot trust him.”
There was such a mix of emotions and anxious rumbling that it shook her to the very core. She interpreted her father’s words as saying, “I do not want this child. It is going to cost me too much. It is going to be a burden.” Then she felt a surge of power within her that communicated a very overwhelming and defensive sense of defiance that she communicated to me with these words.
“I will have to show him that I am worthy of life. I will have to prove that my life has value and that I have a right to live”
This was her private interpretation of this conversation. Her parents would not have wanted their child to live under this kind of pressure; if they would have known what was happening to her. Furthermore, her parents were not responsible for her decision. She made a decision in her heart, and then made a personal vow that she would prove her value and substantiate her right to live.
She was active in the womb. Even before she was born she was discontented with the status quo and had “busyness” about her personality. Her parents said she had been a high level performer all of her life. Although her soul did not consciously remember either her parent’s conversation, or making the vows that have been driving her, the fruit of her decision could be seen clearly. She lived to prove her right to live.
Only God knows the places that you go in your heart that drive your decisions.
When the root is revealed, confessions in prayer and proclamation are required to reset the foundations of the belief system, and bring them into agreement with God and his Word.
The next step in the ministry to this woman was to work through The Kingdom Circle (we will reveal later); confess the sin of idolatry: the self-god syndrome that declared her own power to change the perception of her worth and value. Then dismantle the self-made belief system that brought her into agreement with, “I will prove that I have value and that I have a right to live.” And then establish God’s belief system.
A Deep Groove
Only God knows the places that you go in your heart that drive your decisions. He alone knows how to bring the course required for unlocking the truth. Your eternal Father enters your life every day. You will never be outside of his love. He created the soul for an eternal purpose.
The promise of divine help was foreign to her. The divine connection between the soul, the body, and the spirit that brings the light of God’s wisdom into your heart, is usually activated when you come to the end of yourself and ask for God’s help. The spirit of the world, on the other hand, will give the credit for God-given design and purpose to other instinctual programming.
Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God. Which things also we speak, not in the words which man’s wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.
The spirit of the world is the spirit that this lady agreed with in her mother’s womb. But this was revealed to her through the Holy Spirit of truth. The Apostle Paul, who walked with God in the first century, revealed this almost two-thousand years ago when he said:
And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
The foundation for your belief system must be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Your beginning paradigm that was downloaded at conception, along with the development of your inner-man continues to be shaped by your choices. The consequence of wrong choices will weigh heavy on your psyche, hinder your warm and loving relationships, and can all but annihilate any loving and intimate relationship with God.
Judgment in the Heart
Her belief system was set before she was born. The proof of value will come from her performance. She would be her own personal judge. She alone would evaluate the worth of her life. She judged her father as a selfish and inconsiderate man, who wanted her to prove her worth. He never said that, but she interpreted his words and actions as an aphorism. This groove in her soul was so deep that only the Spirit of truth could reveal the lies, judgments, vows, and value system that had been used by the enemy to torment her and her family.
One of her lies was wrapped around her definition of value. In her heart, her father’s compliment for a job well done was not connected to his love for her, but to the value she needed to prove her right to exist.
I said, “Will you please repeat these confessions and proclamations after me phrase-by-phrase and word-for-word? And as you confess, let your heart come into agreement with God’s word?”
The tears began to flow as she responded with a sigh of relief. ”Yes, I would love to…!” and she turned her life over to God’s design and power.
“Now, repeat this prayer after me phrase-by-phrase from your heart, ‘Lord God, in Jesus name, I confess the sin of Idolatry… I confess the sin of breaking the first three commandments, when I made this vow, ‘I will prove my value and prove that I have a right to live…’ I break agreement with these words and command them to fall to the ground right now in Jesus name… I break agreement with a lie that says, ‘My value is established in my performance …and I come into agreement with the truth that says, ‘My value is set in my creator’s love for me and by him giving his own son Jesus to redeem me.’ (Romans 5:8) ‘I agree that I could do nothing to earn this, but I can only receive as a gift what my eternal Father has given me.’ (John 3:16) ‘Lord God, will you please bring the eternal blood of Jesus and cleanse my body soul and spirit from each of these sins and each of the sins that I chose through my life because I believed these lies? (1 John 1:7) Lord God, I confess that you alone the God of my life and heart. (Philippians 2:11) I bow before you as the only Lord of my life, (Romans 14:11) in Jesus’ name.’” I paused to give her some time to process, and then I asked her.
“How does that feel?”
She responded cautiously but decisively, as if she was walking into a new territory that she had not traveled before. “I feel like a thousand pounds has been lifted off of my neck…”
I said, “Praise the Lord, but we are not done yet. Will you continue with me?”
Then we continued with the following repeat after me prayers and confessions. “I break agreement with a lie that says, ‘I have to prove that I have a right to live…’ and I come into agreement with the truth that says, ‘My eternal father chose me in Christ before the foundations of the world…’ (Ephesians 1:4) ‘My Father chose me before the foundations of the world…’ say the truth again, ‘I am chosen and therefore have a right to live because he sent me here.’ (Acts 17:26-28) (I left the scripture references in because it adds the authority of God’s word.)
Then I said, “Now, how does that settle into your heart?”
Her reply communicated a lighter tone. “It’s like… I can still feel stuff breaking off of me… almost like it is coming off in layers. Can we keep going?”
“Hey… that’s what I am supposed to say.” We laughed and kept our focus in this vein of repentance and confession as Holy Spirit led the restoring of her foundations into truth.
“Ok, let’s go here now… can you be there where you were hearing your parent’s conversation?”
A few moments passed and she said, “I’m there.”
Now confess this and release this to your parents, “Dad and mom, I forgive you for causing me to believe that you did not want me. I forgive you for questioning the value of my life. I forgive you for not speaking treasured thoughts about me from my conception. I forgive you for not valuing me as a gift from God. And Lord, I repent for judging my parents as not wanting me. And I speak blessings on them right now in Jesus name.”
There were other issues that we dealt with in this ministry time, but the root of this issue came from the choice she made in her soul, before she was born. This speaks to either a genetic memory and\or an eternal soul that is aware and already stamped with a paradigm at conception. The older we are when the Lord reveals truth to us, the deeper the influence of this belief system will have on our present day attitude and action.
For this lady, as you can imagine, there were also complications in the relationship with her father. The father establishes your identity, inclusion and inheritance. But she had set her identity in her ability to prove her value and validation. Every time she was complimented she felt vindicated in her right to exist, which caused her to work even harder. When she was corrected, her value in performance took a hit and she was broken. But this also compelled her to work harder. This was unusually frustrating because she was feeling attacked if she did perform and attacked if she didn’t perform. She could not win. What she needed was transformation… to know the truth and the truth to set her free.
A Strong Foundation
The ministry of the Spirit through the heart is the way to a rewarding relationship with God. The Spirit of God meets you where you are and walks with you into the power of a redeemed life. A SozoLife session helps the soul process the events of life through focused prayer and spiritual guidance.
I have designed this book to focus on the foundations required to build your heart in God’s kingdom. As you focus your heart on the power of his word, and walk in the wisdom of his glory, you will become confident. This will give you the power to live life from the heart. A relationship with the Father – Elohim, Jesus – Yeshua, and Ruach – the Spirit of Christ will serve as the channel for a solid foundation. Jesus is the prince of peace and he gives that peace to you. As you make the choice to live your life in God’s Spirit and nature that you receive from him, you will walk out of the dark into his marvelous light.
 Exodus 20:12-16; Mark 10:18-19
 Heart – H3820: Strong’s Hebrew and Greek Dictionaries
 Keep – H5341: Strong’s Hebrew and Greek Dictionaries
 An understanding taken from my interpretation of these passages; Ecclesiastes 12:6-7; Luke 16: 19-31; Ephesians 1:4
 Jeremiah 1:5; Isaiah 43:10; Psalm 90:2
 1 Corinthians 2:10-13